Do It Scared

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I came to a writer’s conference with a book proposal in hand. A publisher loved (maybe that’s a strong word) my concept. The interview was going superbly until she asked THAT question, “Do you have a platform?”  Stammering around, I informed her I had a blog with approximately one follower who was also my best friend.

Done. I was done.  Put a fork in me.

She asked me, “So, why don’t you get more?”

In my logical safe head, I don’t have any other followers because I don’t attempt to get them.  Getting followers would require that I post my posts to social media.  I would have to expose myself and be vulnerable. That sounds horrible!

I’m afraid I’ll sound stupid. I’m afraid of rejection. It’s junior high all over again with added weight and a few wrinkles.

Why do we do this?  The message is not ours to give. The message comes from God. They are His words, encouragement and hope that He wants to give to the ones He loves with all His heart.  We maybe the only connection to just that one.

We may be uncomfortable and exposed, but what a tiny price for such a marvelous privilege.

I answered that publisher honestly.  She said what I knew to be true, and it’s something we have to apply to most of life. She said, “Do it scared.”

Behind the Pulpit

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Behind the pulpit, you usually find a great man.  Behind the great man, you usually find a great woman.  This is what you expect.  This is what you hope for.  This post is for the pastor’s wife.

You have a special place in my heart because my mom is one of you.  I recently spoke at a conference for pastors’ wives.  It was supposed to be from a pastor’s kid’s perspective.  I thought it would be fairly easy.  As I was preparing, I was finding out more and more about these sweet women.  Their stories reminded me of ours.  Their homes were like the one I grew up in.  My dad was a pastor at a larger church, but they were experiencing the same pain and difficulties that we did.

My heart was broken for them.  You see, more than anything, the devil wants to take away our faith.  He would love to have our marriages, our children and our churches, but the greatest prize would be our faith.  You think it would be harder to tear away our faith living in a pastor’s home.  But, many times that is the easiest place.  When you live so connected with that occupation you see things that are unthinkable.  They are things you would expect to see out in the world, but not taking place in God’s precious church.   The people that are put so high up on pedestals in our congregations seem to fall the hardest.  Every time we don’t see it coming, but it does.  It knocks the wind out of us.  It takes a little bit of our faith because we are utterly confused and completely stumped that someone that makes the claims that they do would participate in the behaviors that they do.

We ask ourselves, “Is this it?  Are these the best people Christianity has to offer?”  I struggled with this so much.  I still hear stories that blow me away.  But, I prayed.  I shared my frustration with Christ.  This is what was pointed out to me.  Colossians 3:1-2 says, “He is your life.  So, if you’re serious about living this new resection life with Christ, act like it.  Pursue the things over which Christ presides.  Don’t shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you.  Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ – that’s where the action is.”

I have to look up.  I can’t get caught up in the challenges, questions and difficult things right in front of me.  It is imperative that I change my perspective to God’s perspective and focus on eternity.  I will think on what is lovely, noble and pure.  I will look at people through Christ’s perspective and with his love instead of the devil’s judgement, accusation and hate.

It’s interesting.  How many times have people seen me fall off my pedestal?  God always picks me right back up.  It is so easy to see someone else’s sin as worse than ours.  I thank Him for His constant grace, forgiveness and love.

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